Erin asked me to record a personalized audio for her, and this is the message she sent:
“I read your emails, and your emails from others about their success stories, and I feel very jealous sometimes. Although I am very happy for those who have been able to quit drinking, I am not one of those. I can go 2-3 days between drinking wine, but then it calls again and thus far, I have not been strong enough to resist. I think some of it has to do with the fact that I don't consider myself an alcoholic. I get up early every morning, work 40-50 hours per week, am active in my stepson’s sports clubs, and have not had any life altering events that would indicate that I have a substance abuse problem. Lately though, I just feel bad. I'm bloated, about ten pounds overweight and just don't feel motivated to do all that much. I see how good I feel when I don't drink a bottle of wine before bed, but it's so easy to give in, especially with the stressors in life. I have seen a therapist who seems to think maybe someday I would be able to drink socially, but today feels that I should stop before it becomes a bigger issue. I want to stop drinking. I truly do. I don't like feeling crappy in the morning, forgetting what I did the night before or being worried that I embarrassed myself or husband at a party or event. I guess I really wish I could drink like regular people- stop at one. Right now I cannot, but the thought of never drinking again is overwhelming. I'm sorry for such a long email, but have seen how much you have helped others and I need some help staying sober.”
And in this audio, you can hear my reply to Erin.
I'm not quite as softy-softy as I usually am. Some days it seems like a very gentle ass-kicking might be useful :)
~ love and hugs from me